last updated: 1 week, 3 days ago
This is a page updated sporadically on what I am up to, what I am looking forward to, and anything I might be struggling with.
films: I think whispers in the forest has moved me immensely recently. Humans are meant to feel close to nature and moved by it. This film did just that. It was like watching a poem, one that ended with both hope and sadness. I felt like a part of the forest when I saw it.
books: Most recently I read Vaim. It was unlike any book I had ever read. It's a stream of consciousness that both felt engaging and disconcerting. I can see why the author has won the nobel prize earlier. I picked it up randomly in the library - i love these discoveries. I also started Grief: A Philosophical Guide.
plays: nothing recently, but I am planning to watch First, Do No Harm at KXT this week.
music/gigs: I flew down to Naarm to see Blackwater Holylight. I forgot my earplugs. I felt supported by the heavy music. I am so grateful I can feel, hear, and experience this as an able bodied person. It is something we all take for granted way too often.
struggling with: still a lot with ego and performance and who I am truly am deep down. Feeling somewhat lost in life tbh. Realising how much work I still have to do from years of disassociating or repressing feelings :(
recent wins: I stuck up posters for a gig! My first time! I feel so happy to able to help in a small way. I think I also more genuinely showed up for my friends and was more myself around them. A painted my nails <3. I feel so lucky to be around people that care for me.
excited about: creating some art for H and organising a trip. Writing more poetry and maybe even presenting it to a small group soon.
trying to learn: Not sure - recognising my emotions and needs better? And having better regulation techniques? I do want to start using my brain more as well via a new activity/challenging task.