feeling my own experience
recently, i've found myself losing myself
i keep seeing the sea of souls around me
and think of their experiences in a place, time, event
and then that's all i think about
there's this gap
i feel like their experience is more profound than mine
and then i get caught up in how i can reach their experience
my entire focus goes on observing others experience
leaving my own one behind
i feel like i need to change this radicaly
otherwise i fear i will continue performing
and continue to be sad that i did not actually live enough
so, let me reinvent the way i experience the world
what if i just let myself feel the experience as me
through my eyes and being
but look after others around me and be happy to share the experience
without feeling like i need to be a certain person
or do a certain thing
not fall into comparison
and genuinely being happy and accepting
that other people experience the world differently to me
and that is ok.
because i experience the world meaningfully, too
and i want to let myself feel this way tonight
just treat the night as an experience that i get to have
to continue existing on this entropic world
for another day.
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